So… I have lots of anxiety, to the point that I almost never go anywhere. I do have a few friends, but we keep in touch by phone. I see them maybe once or twice a year. The only person I hangout with IRL is my boyfriend because we live together.
But anxiety getting in the way of having a social life is not what bothers me. What bothers me is that anxiety gets in the way of being involved in organizing, class struggle, and being part of the collective effort to push us further towards libertarian-communism.
I know I’m only one person, so my ability to make a difference is limited. But I want to do my part, however small.
This desire is like a craving, an ache… it excites me, scares me, and keeps me up at night. The suffering in the world is so extreme, so horrible. And then there’s the contrast of knowing how beautiful the world could be if based on mutual aid, equality, and freedom.
I want to do my part, however small. But what if I can’t even do that? This terrifies me.
So, does anyone here relate?
Maybe for you it’s not anxiety but some other obstacle. Could be depression, alcoholism/addiction, burn-out, pessimism, lack of free time……………..
How do you cope with this? Are you able to find ways to contribute, despite your obstacles? Do you manage to push yourself enough to get out there in the world? Or do you have some other way of contributing (maybe writing, or a podcast, or making blood sacrifices to the gods of anarchy in hopes they will turn the revolutionary tides for us)?